So today at work I had a revelation that my friend Luke would LOVE to work here at my office for one reason and one reason only. We talk in codes.

Now by codes I don't mean we have a secret language, I just mean we shorten everything we can. So does Luke. Luke shortens names like SJP (Sarah Jessica Parker) or food items such as the BBP (Brownie Bottom Pie). He'll even take everyday words and shorten them like the usue (is that even how you spell it?) instead of usual. Well here at work I came to the realization we speak Luke.

I was requesting a POD (Proof of delivery) online when Todd came to deliver RGA (Return good authorizations) while I was getting a request for an ETA (estimated time of arrival) on my voice mail. Oh MY GOD I thought to myself. I've turned into Luke and his abbreviated words. (not like it's just me this is common speak in the office)

I don't know why it took this long to hit me, especially since it makes me laugh so hard when Luke and Matty P shorten words like crazy, but now that it has I can't help but to giggle a little when I have to request a POD. TeeHee.

My god has it been busy around here. I know I know I'm a slaker and haven't written, but what the heck can you do when there's always calls coming in and salemen at your desk. Makes it hard to write don't it!

The only person I know who reads this everyday anyway is Luke so I must be REALLY letting him down. And for that Luke I'm sorry, I love ya and I'll make up for it soon I promise.

I'm taking the day off work tomorrow to do laundry and clean my house cause it's freaking me out that I haven't gotten anything done what so ever. So Friday I'll take some time to write...hopefully

OH MY GOD I AM SO BUSY AT WORK!!!

I'm going crazy from the amount of "busyness" I've been going through for the last 3 days. I'm either going to cry or drop dead, one of the two.

BAH! And I still have the rest of the night at Bennigans!

I'm a loser I keep forgetting to write. I did get a mini type promotion with no extra money today. I get more responsibility, so that's good.

But until I get a free moment ... ponder this ...

Why exactly do they call them blow jobs when you don't do anything of the sort?

Drive up teller machines with Braille? Ummm...why are the blind DRIVING!?

What is the deal with the Gen Y generation not counting oral as sex....if it has the word sex directly in it...you can factor it in the sex category.

Later peeps

I wonder about people sometimes.

Actually I wonder about people A LOT! I wonder why they treat people the way they do and think they can get away with it. For instance I'm a waitress at night. For some reason some people think this job sets you in a category next to pond scum so therefore they can treat you like the you really don't exist. I do my best to give you good service.

Here's some advice for you people who obviously don't eat out often.

1. When I say ONE coupon per table, it doesn't mean you can get separate checks and count it as another table. It actually mean you have to sit and ANOTHER table. Were not trying to scam you, so don't keep trying to scam us.

2. I don't cook the food I serve it. I understand if something is not to your liking and if you would like me to fix it I'd be more than happy too, if and only if you ask me to in a pleasant manner. Freaking out on me is not going to make me very happy and in turn won't make you very happy. I guarantee that.

3. I will continue to check up on your table, it's part of my job, I don't mind. But DON'T, I repeat, DON'T interrupt me when I'm speaking to another table because you need more dressing. IT'S RUDE! Not only to me because I'm speaking to someone else, but to the table I'm serving. How would you like it if it was done to you....DOUBT YOU WOULD!

4. Going along with that....if I ask you if you need anything else, please ask me for everything at once. Not send me for napkins, I come back, send me for dressing, I come back, send me for a refill on your soda.....etc...etc. It's annoying not to mention takes time away from serving other people. If I ask you if you need a refill and you say no, don't ask me for one 5 minutes later. Let me refill your drink then when I have time. Not 5 minutes from now when I'm trying to take a table of 8's order.

5. Speaking of large parties.....CALL A RESTAURANT before you and the fam show up. If there's more than 6 people, you should always call a restaurant and let them know your coming. It's only fair, that way we can have a table waiting for you, you don't have to give the host attitude because we can't accommodate you at that moment, and everyone ends up happy in the long run. Side note with those parties, don't make me stand there if you all aren't ready to order. Just because YOUR ready doesn't mean everyone else is. When the place if full I don't have time to stand at your table staring at 2 people while they try and decide if they want the Monte or the Ruben. IF your not ready, I'll come back, I don't mind. I do mind standing there like an idiot staring at you while you try and make up your mind.

6. This actually goes along with both of my jobs. DON'T tell me how to do my job! I've been waiting tables for almost 11 years, I'm pretty good at it. There's nothing worse than a table telling me how to wait a table. I should tell them what's in the salad cause they didn't know it came with bacon even though it states it CLEARLY on the menu. I should bring ranch and blue cheese with their wings cause not everyone likes blue cheese. (or as my day job goes...they don't need a customer # to order, they never have before....well no one can order with out an account so YES you DO!) I'm not a mind reader, I don't know what you like. And frankly if your that picky and need every modification in the world....EAT AT HOME. Unless you've lived in a hole the last 10 years your aware of the Ecoli virus, I can't cook your burger rare...SORRY....Bennigan's the corporation won't chance it. So don't tell me I can just go back in the kitchen and tell the cook to cook it less. Trust me Jose will tell me NO and laugh at me cause I know better.

and finally (for now) 7. If you go to a restaurant and you see it closes at 11 and you show up at 10:45....DON'T GO IN! It's ridiculous (or ask those of us at the Bennigans say ricockulous) The kitchen gets pissed they have to dirty the kitchen they just clean, I'm pissed cause I have to sit there for another hour while you take you sweet time to eat an pay. If you see a place is closing within minutes....don't torture the place by going in an having a casual dinner. Quick to go...maybe, but sitting there for an hour after the doors are locked and chairs are up NOT COOL. Most of us have day jobs that we would like to get some sleep for before I have to go to it!

Ok, ranting over....I feel better educating you all a little....back to work for me.

So have you ever done something you know is wrong, but you just can't help doing it? Maybe it's the whole excitement value of it, maybe it's the thrill of getting caught doing something naughty. I don't know what it is about it, but it's just such a rush you don't know how to stop the down hill spiral once it's started.

Now I'm not getting into detail about it so don't ask...I like to keep people guessing, besides, I'm not positive I'm going to do ANYTHING yet. It's just up in the air, and that up in the air stuff can be pretty interesting in itself. (NO I'm NOT having an affair even if everyone in my office thinks so.)

I can just see Luke and Kivi busting their buttons trying to figure it all out. Well, maybe someday I'll tell you, but for right now I'm just semi writing about it to get it out of my own head. I'm come to realize although my life is quite boring I do some weird things to make it interesting at times.....

Not much to update ya'll on today. I discussed with Holly about living with her for a few months in her one bedroom until we can get a larger place in Oct when her lease is up. She thinks it's a pretty good idea, so it may just work for us. We'll see how things go as the time gets closer.

My roomie is continually making my life frustrating. But what else is new. Now she's started eating the meals I pre-pack for myself. Now how slow do you have to be to realize they are packed in individual little containers for a reason! DUH! Soon I will be rid of her, then she's Roger's problem. I started looking into movers, and GEEZ are they expensive. Anyone know some nice strong guys willing to help me move from my 3rd floor apartment in June?

Well, check ya later.....

So I work out everyday before I eat lunch. Nothing TOO great but I do a mile then some easy lifting to cool down. Everyday it's been getting easier and easier....Hopefully soon I'll start seeing some results! :)

Between my new diet and my workouts I can tell you I do feel a lot better. It relieves a lot of tension for me I can tell you that. And since at the age of 26 I have slightly high blood pressure...tension relief is a GOOD thing. It's mostly because I work 2 pretty high stress jobs. But I'm doing what I can to improve it.

My pops is comin' to visit me at the Bennigans tonight. I haven't seen my family since Christmas so this is a good thing. I'm going to talk to him some about me POSSIBLY moving into his place while I'm homeless for 4 months thanks to the roomie movin' out earlier than originally planned. They MAY go for it, they MAY not. It's still a debate. I don't really want to since my parents are in Wisconsin and the commute to work will be horrendous....but what can you do. And it's only from June 1st till Oct 1st right! It'll save me some $$ too then I'll be able to afford my security deposit and such without a problem.

Of course I'll have to pay mom and pops rent to live there, but nothing like an ACTUAL apartment. Plus my mom cooks. I'll be able to help my mom out too without wanting to kill somebody like my roommate. Let's just cross our fingers and hope it works out. Maybe maybe maybe.

I'll be talkin' to Holly tonight too about moving. Just to make sure that's still what she wants to do otherwise I'll be looking for my own place.....that'll set me back! Alright....hasta for now. I got lots of work to do.

I think I may be officially homeless for 4 months from June 1st to Oct 1st. My plan was to move with Holly (and Luke) in October. Well since my roommate just sprung the big news about her wanting to leave in April. I'm stumped as to what to do.

I can get her to pay the rent till June 1st. When our non-existent lease is up. But from June to Oct when Holly's lease is up. I'm in limbo!! I tried to discuss with the rents about me living there for a few till Holly's lease is up...but so far they're still considering it. (Layman's terms for they really don't want me back even for the 4 months!) I offered to pay and I think that helped so I'm crossing my fingers I'm not sleepin' from couch to couch when June comes.

You wouldn't believe how stress of a living situation can put on a gal! I'm ready to cry and put my fist through a wall at the same time. OH AND I found out that there's a rumor going around about me having an affair with a married guy at work. He's not even rich so way would I be.....kidding.....I have morals but I guess the people here don't care. Well, raspberries to them!!!

Later peeps....

So a new week has begun! I really hate Mondays for the only reason that it seems every stupid person in the WORLD call here on Mondays. Some of them even get confused when you ask them where they are calling from. I didn't think that was a HARD question. But I suppose it is to much to ask someone what the name of the company they work for is.

So I had a pretty good weekend. All and all...good, except for my 'roomie' incident. Saturday I went to the jewelry show...that would have been WAY more fun if I actually had money to spend. But I did get to look at a lot of really nice stuff so it was fun. I dropped my friends off and went to nap for a bit. When I got up my roomie decided to inform me she's moving out in April instead of October. That's a full SIX months before I actually expected her to. So bottom line, I'm stressin' about the whole roommate thing right now. I did go out with Holly and Luke that night, so it calmed me down and made me forget my troubles for the moment.

Sunday I spent most of the day cleaning and cooking. I happen to be known as a huge pack rat. I keep everything....it's about time that stopped. Especially as much as I've been moving the last 3 years. I cleaned out a lot of old notes, Christmas/Birthday cards and such. I kept on to some of it. But I took 4 HUGE boxes down to 2 moderately sized ones so I'm pretty proud of that....

The cooking you ask? Well, I'm trying to change my eating habits into healthier ones. Since I work all the time, it's hard to cook everyday. So I made preprep meals and snacks for myself. Grilled up some tasty chicken on my G. Foreman grill (did I mention I love this thing!). I cut up some veggies and such and now I have 5 days worth of fruit, chicken for my salad, cottage cheese, veggies and salad fixins! I'm so proud of myself! I never actually thought about doing that until my dietian suggested it. It seems like I would have thought of it before, but sometimes I'm not all that swift. It's worked out well for me so far...lets see if I can stick with it.

My cold got the best of me yesterday so I stayed home. I know, I know....you missed me. But you will be happy to know I got ONE blood test results back and they were ALL GOOD! YEAH!

I go to the doc tomorrow new diet! YEAH SKINNY DAWN. Ok, I'm not a cow....but it'll be good to be in shape again. I did go to the grocery yesterday while home sick and got lots of healthy food. I made a keen observation though, why is it the healthier stuff is for you the more expensive it is. I can buy mirco burritos for like $.60...but I have to pay like $2.29 a lb for tomatoes that look half bad....doesn't make sense. They want our country to be more healthily but the only thing that's cheap is MC'D's....BOO on our economy for makin us fat!

I hate going to the doctor. I hate it because I don't ever remember a time I've gone to the doc and they haven't told me something NEW is wrong with me.

This time I had to give up a lot of blood to be tested. Turns out my fatigue could be something pretty serious. Let me break it down for you. My doc seems to think my one kidney that works isn't filtering enough junk out of me and basically I may be getting in laymans terms 'dirty blood' flowing through my veins making me feel mighty tired most of the time. That's what happens when your body is fighting off bacteria most of the time....it makes you tired.

Hopefully when the tests come back they say that this isn't true and I'm just low on iron or something....otherwise I'm going to have to look for a donor. But we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. Don't worry guys I'll be fine. This isn't the first time I've gone through this and I'm sure it won't be the last. I'm just not looking forward to dialysis if I have to get it. That sucks. But I want to move on from those thoughts though.....

Ok, happy thoughts. Good news is I'm going to see a dietitian on Saturday. I'm pretty pumped about it. I think it's going to be good for me to start eating better instead of grabbing potato soup on the go. I looking forward to getting back into shape believe it or not! What will you people do with me when I'm hot AND thin! HAHAHAHAHA.

So by the way Luke I don't work on Saturday. We still making plans? Just wondering.....

I disappointed Luke by not writing on the 2nd, I was busy putting my finances in order so I can finally wipe away some of this credit card debt. I'm so close, yet so FAR away. I need to stop spending money. But when your down and out and NEVER home it's easy to spend money without even realizing it......

So I started working out today. I'm starting slow and working my way up to it, but I walked 2miles uphill on the treadmill at lunch. I felt a little jello-like when I got off...but that's expected I suppose. Especially on artificial walking ground. I feel good about myself for actually doing something I said I was going to do. Now I just have to keep it up and I'll be fine. :) But, since my doctor told me to start taking care of myself or I'm going to regret it early in life....I think I'll be pretty dedicated to keeping it up.

Anyway, my new year is starting out well. No major catastrophes to report. Although I do have to figure out a way for me to separate myself from some of the life sucking people I started hanging with last year. It's easier to say your going to do it that ACTUALLY doing it. All and all they are fun to hang with....but they aren't good for my self-respect, esteem, or karma. But I'm a firm believer in what goes around comes around so....I have to do it in a way that feeling won't be damaged. Sometimes I think I purposely make my life this complicated.....

You know if you know anyone that won the lottery or came into a lot of money somehow lately....can you ask them if they could let me have $20,000? If that's asking for too much I'll take $10,000. I just want to pay this stuff off and start fresh again. No more crappy roommate I can't stand....no more credit card debt (now I know better)....no more stress of how I'm going to scrape together my car payment and still go and chill with my friends without looking like a cheapsake.....Oh well, the new year WILL be better I hope....check back I'll keep you posted on my debt relief. It is currently about <---this is an estimation $8400.00

I hope Luke is glad I updated.....I have a doctor appt tomorrow so I'll be in late to work so I may not have time tomorrow...but I'll try. No Promises.