So toady is customer appreciation day at work. Which basically means they give us some free cheap crap, and buy us lunch....hot dogs and such....and say get back to work.

personally I'd like them to stop hiring people with 6 digit incomes that don't seem to know a damn thing and give me a decent raise since I'm the one having to deal with these customers on a daily basis. But that won't happen....since 'we didn't have a good year'. But that seems to happen every year.

They just officially cut the Brit OT too, which is A LOT of cash (well a lot to us anyway). But yet they haven't cut his work load, and anything that goes wrong is his fault....even if he's not even here like the shite that went down on Friday (we took vaca). My company makes NO sense.....

Still trying to lose some pounds. Even though I keep forgetting the gym gear I just washed. BUT!! My pops did just fix my bike for me so I'll be able to use that now, till the winter comes anyway and we get a buried in snow (I HATE WINTER). My mom and pops were even nice enough to set up my own bed at home. I missed my bed. A LOT! And on Sunday when I came home bloody hungover it was the coolest present in the WORLD!

Bah....I have a lot to say just no time to say it in....so for now...Hasta.

Ok, so the wedding's come and gone. I lost maybe 3 pounds (since my pants don't feel as snug I'm guessing)....and I got ridiculously plastered at the wedding and made an ass of myself to my boyfriend. Don't remember a damn thing or I'd give you details.....but Jess was pretty, for the bitch that she is.....she was a pretty bride.

Ok, so work is INSANE lately. I'm so stressed at my day job I can barely tolerate going to serve people at night anymore. Although for the boyfriend it's been TEN times worse so I can't complain too much (except for the fact then when he leaves here he doesn't have to go to another job....) The Brit's house is now officially up for sale (any takers??!!!) and once it's sold we can move into our own home! YAY! I don't know how much more I can take. Especially since I torture myself by spending these really nice weekends (or weeks like last week) with him...only to have to go back to sleeping on my own. I like naked spooning!! I want it now! But NO...I gotta live with the rents, and he has to have that whole wife thing.....damn it.

I think all the day's stress could easily be relieved if everyone could go home and nekid spoon! I'm patented that idear!

Geez....I haven't written in a while....SORRY folks. (although I say that knowing no one reads this damn blog)

I'm a little cranky folks, in case you haven't noticed.....I'm a little cranky because I have made the mistake of weighing myself on Friday. It was supposed to be stupid fun Holly and I were having when we were on the way home from a concert in Milwaukee. (Hey, when they put a scale that tells you your fortune in the women's bathroom, you can't help but to use it....)Instead I almost had a small heart attack when I discovered I'm REAL close to the 190 range.

Granted I knew I gained weight, but I didn't know I was getting that big. I'm a fat ass....
Needless to say, I'm changing my eating habits and going back to running DAILY if it kills me.

Why so cranky you ask? Well, I'm hungry damnit. I've gotten my body used to just eating when my tummy growls, now I won't fall for such advances from my tummy...No I'm not starving myself, but I have to balance my diet and stop all the snacking on junk. The Englishmen however has the fastest metabolism EVER so he can eat whatever whenever he chooses, right now that just makes me want to punch anyone with a metabolism in the neck.

FAT KID!!! Rally up! I say we take them all down!!!

Ok, breathing deeply......I'll keep you posted on my progress....right now I have 2 weeks till Jess's wedding and hoping to shed like 5lbs by they (not an unreasonable goal). I'm at (DREAD the thought of admitting it....) 188 now....maybe if I post it it'll help me keep on track. Cross your fingers and encourage the soon to be other fat kid if she doesn't keep on herself!!!

188 and counting....>DOWN NOT UP>>>>>

....the waves keep on crashin' on me for some reason....but your love keeps on coming like thuderbolt.

I'm going on VACATION! Yeah.

Ok, so I'm going to stay in a hotel in the area for 4 days, it's not like I'm going to Mexico or anything. I'm just not going to work for 4 1/2 days! YAH!~

As of 12:30 today...I'm gone I'm out, I'm going to be spending nekid time with my boyfriend! Sweet candy ass! And it's the Englishmen's birthday this monday! He's turing 34 this Monday...so no more saying your 33 (even if my mom didn't believe you).....

Ok, I have to actually work for the next few hours, not busy Saturday....call me....and come over to party with us (if your not already!)

.....you got me feelin' hella good so let's just keep on dancin'!

.....yeah-a, alright we'll spend the night together, wake up and live forever.

Damn! I haven't updated in a while! I think it's because I'm so busy at work I almost forgot I had a blog.....how can one forget! It's like I turned into Kivi for a moment!

Well, Gary was nice enough to comment in my blog that it popped into my email and I remembered, damnit girl you need to blog. You set it up to relieve stress.....do it damn it!

In answer to your question Gary...I'm not sure what kind of hobby I'm looking for. You see the man in my life goes to the track on Saturdays to ride his dirtbike. (While I'm serving tables for 10 hours....Nice) It's something he REALLY enjoys and it relieves a lot of stress for him. It got me to thinking that I really need something to relieve the stress in my life.

Right now, riding the El for hour would be a little difficult since I have only one day a week to myself ... and to myself I mean I don't have to go to work. Lately Dayne and I have been spending a lot of time going to a local park finding a quiet spot to lay out a blanket and spend the day reading, drinking beer, and being alone with each other..... and it's wonderful. But those moments are few and far between.

I could tell you my hobby is playing and electronic handheld solitaire game at night when I get home, but that could make me a loser. (take my advice people DON'T pick up one of these games! They are highly addicting, it may be harder to give up the solitaire than it was to give up the coke problem I had.) I could tell you my hobby is drinking beer, but that would make me an alcoholic. I could tell you my hobby is being intimate with my boyfriend, but that's more of a necessity than a hobby.

I don't have a knack for drawing or painting (although I love art....) I don't have a knack for writing (although I blog) I don't have a death wish so riding is out of the question (besides the boys might have a heart attack if I showed up with them) I just need something to take my mind off the day.

Dayne can tell you for this, I stress about EVERYTHING. I'm stress about his get together for his birthday, I'm stressed about work, I'm stress about finances, I'm stress about a place to live, I'm stressed about having to make it through today, I'm stressed about going to the white trash fair with my family this weekend (that's the Wisconsin State Fair for you non-locals) I'm pretty much on edge ALL the time. That's why Dayne and I make a great couple. He NEVER stresses unless it's about work, and about twenty minutes after he's left here.....it's gone. I want that power. Maybe I can make my hobby the ability not to have to plan EVERYTHING to a tee. But I doubt that will happen.

Ok, I have to start work now......I'll come back later when it quiets down and write some more since I haven't written in awhile.

Hasta.

I have just now decided I REALLY need a hobby, just for the stress relief alone. Suggestions?

...don't waste your time on me your already the voice inside my head....

My blog bores people I think, then again I didn't make to to entertain I made it to vent fustrations, so who the funk cares. :)

I have a million and one things I SHOULD be doing (not work wise, it's pretty slow this morning otherwise I wouldn't be typing this) but can't seem to motivate myself to do anything. I'm chalking it up to my accident and all the meds I've been on.

****I fell at work, sprained my lower back for those of you who don't know*****

So I'll make a list:

Things I should be doing, but just don't have the motivation to do

1. Picking up hours at the Bennigan's trying to catch up from this time I've been on workmen's comp.

2. Calling the damn Walgreens to see if I can get a receipt for my Vicodan that Dayne accidently threw away, but I need to turn into workmen comp.

3. Finding out where the hell my boyfriend is since he's not answering his phone when I call.

3 1/2. Kicking his butt if he rode his bike to work since it's supposed to thunderstorm today.

4. July's financial forecast (i.e. figuring out how I'm going to get those damned bills paid.)

5. Working to get rid of this extra 40 pounds! Damn the slowing of the metabolism.

6. Finding an apartment since I only have till October 1st to find a place to live.

7. Stop stressing over all the money I spent in the last month.

8. Find a birthday gift for my guy. O.K. I have a month for that

9. Getting sunglasses before I go blind from squinting.

10. Watching the reply of I love the 90's on VH1 for the laugh.

11. Figuring out how loud I can turn up my headphones and still hear the phone ring since Kelly's getting louder and louder.

12. Beating the crap out of the mofo's that decided to leave us with a $217 bill on Saturday.

13. Finding cheap ways Dayne and I can spend time together.

14. Finding cheap (but nice) hotels we can stay in when we need to have some private time so we don't have an experience like we did last weekend. FYI...never stay at the DAYS INN in Kenosha

15. Getting the song 'Funky Town' town out my head. Don't ask I don't know.

16. Organizing my desk.

17. Cleaning my car, inside and out. Mainly to get that smiley face off the back of my car and my boyfriend off my back about how messy my car is.

18. Figuring out why I find this ( Mental Drippings ) so damn funny.

19. Learning how to drive stick.

20. Getting a haircut.

21. Finding a stylist closer to home that I like so I can get a hair cut.

22. One word ladies .... Pedicure... It's open toe shoe season and I'm without one (shutter)

23. Finding new ways to please my man (and I don't mean in the bedroom)

24. Finding new ways to please my man (and this time I do mean in the bedroom)

25. Realize my addiction to reading other peoples blogs and coming to terms with it. (I need a self help group, do you think there's BA.

26. Finding out why the whole ....they make you run faschter... thing is just so funny to me.

27. E mailing back my best friend over in Iraq.

28. Figuring out where to take my honey for his birthday. Ok, I know I have a month

29. Getting back to work instead of typing here.......

30. Developing the pictures I took on the Fat Kid's 21st

31. Finding new music to listen to.

32. Realizing how old I'm getting because they made an I love the 90's and I can't believe the whole Amy Fisher thing and Ren and Stimpy first came out 12 years ago.

33. Calling Beth to let her know I have Friday and Sunday off.

34. Going to the bathroom instead of holding it.

35. Laughing out loud on how much money Brittany Spears is going to loose out on her 2nd marriage now (dumbass that doesn’t want a pre-nup!)

36. Buying shorts to wear since it’s damn hot.

37. Drinking my Venti Iced Double Shot White Mocha with whip cream…..maybe if I did I’d be motivated!

38. Asking for my vacation days. (Dear GOD! I need them!)

39. Finding a hobby before I go crazy….

40. Actually getting back to work instead of typing more.


***Update, 3 and 3 1/2 are done, found him, no bike, he just slept in***