Well I would have a lot to write if I had more TIME! I'm going to try and update at work today to post for tomorrow.

In the mean time I can tell you I gushed blood out of my arm and all over my clothes today at school. :)

I KNOW you wanted to know that!

After today 9 days left!!

It's been a LONG week, and it just keeps getting worse.

So my day for today constists of .... school 5am, work 8:30 to 5:30, bartend 6:00 to midnight. Saturday 10am MA certification test, bartend, HOMEWORK, laundry, housecleaning for the rest of the weekend.

I'm a party girl!

I almost can't wait till this school thing is over just so I can go back to my naughty girl ways...at least somewhat anyway.

ONLY 2 MORE weeks!!!

THAT'S 10 DAYS PEOPLE!!!

And sadness enters....

For those of you who haven't heard.....

My grandfather, Ronnie Smith, passed yesterday at 8:10am.

For those of you who met him, you know he was one of the quirkiest, stubbornness, thrifiest, and FINEST men you will ever meet.

He had a lot of love in his heart, enough for even those who didn't express it back. Through the years of toughing out 8 years of cancer, he keep hope in his heart, love on his mind, and goodness in his soul. He would've done anything for anyone, even if he didn't have it to give he would give you the last dollar he had if it would've helped you. He lived through 8, nearly 9, decades and saw more in his lifetime than most of us can think of seeing in two.

The doctors named him the Energizer Bunny due to his living through 3 types of cancer, and still kickin'. But in the end, his heart just couldn't hold so much love anymore and finally let his soul go in peace.

My grandfather is now reunited with the only women he ever loved. I wish I had the chance to say goodbye to him, but I'm sure he knows we were all there in spirit.

I'll miss you Grandpa.

I love you.

My Karma has been ....

set straight.....

I promised I wouldn't take about 'him' but I figurged, it's not his choice....
I'm posting an email between me and the Brit's new love....

Toni, is Carla's best friend
Dayne is my ex
And Carla is the newbie

I flipped it for you so you can read straight down

-----Original Message-----
From: Dawn
Sent: Friday, October 07, 2005 3:49 PM
To: Toni
Subject:

I just stopped by to see you, but you weren't there....

Ok, this might seem really strange coming from me and all, but I think everyone deserves to hear a nice compliment when warranted. I saw Carla this morning and this afternoon, and I'm not sure if did something different than usual, but I couldn't help but to notice she looks particularly beautiful today. She really is a striking women. If you talk to her, let her know, I'm not the only one who noticed (and it didn't have to come from me if that would be weird.)

-----Original Message-----
From: Toni
Sent: Friday, October 07, 2005 4:02 PM
To: Carla
Subject: FW:

Hey - check out the nice compliment you got below. I thought that was really nice of her.
Toni

-----Original Message-----
From: Carla
Sent: Friday, October 07, 2005 4:16 PM
To: Dawn
Subject: FW:

I guess I have to say I am very humbled as I don't look or think of myself that way.

Thank you.

Unexpected surprises are always nice, thank you again.

-----Original Message-----
From: Dawn
Sent: Friday, October 07, 2005 4:21 PM
To: Carla
Subject: RE:

Although we've had animosity between the two of us, I hold nothing against you or Dayne. I admit I WAS bitter, but that has long since pasted.

I have always thought of you as a very striking women, one of the reasons I was quite jealous in the first place, just ask Dayne. You should hold yourself in higher regard because you do deserve it. And your very welcome.

-----Original Message-----
From: Carla
Sent: Monday, October 10, 2005 9:49 AM
To: Dawn
Subject: FW:

I can completely understand how you felt and how it may have looked. However, at no time were Dayne and I together while you two were together. Nevertheless, I am very aware that any break-up is difficult, much less when working together. There really never was animosity on my part, I just understood how you must have felt and didn't want to incur any further animosity (as you put it).
I Thank you again for your kind words.

-----Original Message-----
To: Carla
Sent : Monday, October 10,2005 10:15am

Dayne and I were involved even after our break up and a lot of things lead me to believe, in my own head, we were getting back together, but honestly I don't want to get into all that. What's done is done. Dayne is truly a good person with a big heart and I just wasn't meant to fill that place he had open in it. Since then, I have found myself in a really good place and happier than I've ever been, and he seems to be very happy with you as well. I'm glad you two have found each other....just wish it would have been not in the work place like you said. That was the hard part.

Sorry Gemina!!!

No post. No time, Maranda is letting us go early...so I'm off to work.

I need all the money I can get!!!

How do you make....

the pain go away!

I'm suffering through the last few days of migrane city. Chris has been wonderfully supportive of me and my crankyness, I'm not too pleasant when I can't focus my eyes, move my neck or have severe sensativity to the light. But on top of it, I'm also PMSing...yeah!

Funk you hormones I hate you. I would have given anything to stay in bed today, but there's a test to be had and stuff to be done at work. Maybe I'll go home a little early ... maybe ...

Don'ca.....

I know, I know....

I said I'd spend more time with these posts, but I haven't....I'm a slacker.

Actually truth is, I got busier at work. A fellow rep was promoted to my new boss, so therefore her work had to be distributed. Since I already covered the 2 major accounts, it only made sense to transfer them to me. Millard and Burger King are all mine, problem is now my phone rings twice as much. Oh well, the days FLY by!!

On top of that, I do have a new relationship on my hands. With Chris it's nice cause I don't feel like I have to 'WORK' on our relationship, it just kinda happens naturally. I nautrally love talking to him and expressing my opionon, and he does the same. We respect the fact that each one of us is allowed an opinon and we learn from each others. I naturally want to be close to him, I miss him when he isn't. I don't feel like I'm pressured into anything....including sex. It's nice to just be able to curl up next to someone and know that's OK, and they won't be groping you in a few moments. Sometimes...no sex is good too. It's great, fantastic, wonderful....we all know this is the 'beginning' still though, lets hope bitchy Dawn doesn't chase him away ...hahahahaha.... Come on laugh, you know at one point I can be pretty damn bitchy!!

Anyway, we have a busy next couple of weekends!! Bears game, wedding, Chris has drill, getting the trailer, and 2 friends with 2 different parties on 2 different days!! Cripes....until the 2nd weekend in November, were booked solid! (Honey, in case your reading this....this is your reminder of all the things we have planned)

Even more good news, after today.... SEVEN MORE WEEKS left of school!! YEAH!! I'm thrilled. I wish I had more time to post, but I don't sorry peeps...I'll try and right a long post for you later.