So toady is customer appreciation day at work. Which basically means they give us some free cheap crap, and buy us lunch....hot dogs and such....and say get back to work.

personally I'd like them to stop hiring people with 6 digit incomes that don't seem to know a damn thing and give me a decent raise since I'm the one having to deal with these customers on a daily basis. But that won't happen....since 'we didn't have a good year'. But that seems to happen every year.

They just officially cut the Brit OT too, which is A LOT of cash (well a lot to us anyway). But yet they haven't cut his work load, and anything that goes wrong is his fault....even if he's not even here like the shite that went down on Friday (we took vaca). My company makes NO sense.....

Still trying to lose some pounds. Even though I keep forgetting the gym gear I just washed. BUT!! My pops did just fix my bike for me so I'll be able to use that now, till the winter comes anyway and we get a buried in snow (I HATE WINTER). My mom and pops were even nice enough to set up my own bed at home. I missed my bed. A LOT! And on Sunday when I came home bloody hungover it was the coolest present in the WORLD!

Bah....I have a lot to say just no time to say it in....so for now...Hasta.

Ok, so the wedding's come and gone. I lost maybe 3 pounds (since my pants don't feel as snug I'm guessing)....and I got ridiculously plastered at the wedding and made an ass of myself to my boyfriend. Don't remember a damn thing or I'd give you details.....but Jess was pretty, for the bitch that she is.....she was a pretty bride.

Ok, so work is INSANE lately. I'm so stressed at my day job I can barely tolerate going to serve people at night anymore. Although for the boyfriend it's been TEN times worse so I can't complain too much (except for the fact then when he leaves here he doesn't have to go to another job....) The Brit's house is now officially up for sale (any takers??!!!) and once it's sold we can move into our own home! YAY! I don't know how much more I can take. Especially since I torture myself by spending these really nice weekends (or weeks like last week) with him...only to have to go back to sleeping on my own. I like naked spooning!! I want it now! But NO...I gotta live with the rents, and he has to have that whole wife thing.....damn it.

I think all the day's stress could easily be relieved if everyone could go home and nekid spoon! I'm patented that idear!

Geez....I haven't written in a while....SORRY folks. (although I say that knowing no one reads this damn blog)

I'm a little cranky folks, in case you haven't noticed.....I'm a little cranky because I have made the mistake of weighing myself on Friday. It was supposed to be stupid fun Holly and I were having when we were on the way home from a concert in Milwaukee. (Hey, when they put a scale that tells you your fortune in the women's bathroom, you can't help but to use it....)Instead I almost had a small heart attack when I discovered I'm REAL close to the 190 range.

Granted I knew I gained weight, but I didn't know I was getting that big. I'm a fat ass....
Needless to say, I'm changing my eating habits and going back to running DAILY if it kills me.

Why so cranky you ask? Well, I'm hungry damnit. I've gotten my body used to just eating when my tummy growls, now I won't fall for such advances from my tummy...No I'm not starving myself, but I have to balance my diet and stop all the snacking on junk. The Englishmen however has the fastest metabolism EVER so he can eat whatever whenever he chooses, right now that just makes me want to punch anyone with a metabolism in the neck.

FAT KID!!! Rally up! I say we take them all down!!!

Ok, breathing deeply......I'll keep you posted on my progress....right now I have 2 weeks till Jess's wedding and hoping to shed like 5lbs by they (not an unreasonable goal). I'm at (DREAD the thought of admitting it....) 188 now....maybe if I post it it'll help me keep on track. Cross your fingers and encourage the soon to be other fat kid if she doesn't keep on herself!!!

188 and counting....>DOWN NOT UP>>>>>