Jobless....

Yep, that's right. For those of you who haven't heard by now I got let go from my new job.
No, it wasn't for looking up porn on the internet, or for my sarcasim...but for, and I quote being to smart and talented for the position. They were afraid I was going to become really bored with the very limited interation with people I was going to have. They're right, but the worst part, they wouldn't even let me continue to work until I found something new.

So, for the first time in history, I was layed off for being smart and talented. On the up side I'm hoping to find something even better. I interviewed at a few places today, and a few more this week. I was at a company today I LOVED. It's an events planner, very high energy and lots of interaction. I love any place that's playing dance music when I walk into the office, AWESOME! :) I came really close to just getting up and dancing, but I figured I'd tone it down for now :)

Keep your fingers crossed for me!

Down and out....

I know I've been using this blog for my weight loss as of late, and speaking of I've been to the gym everyday this week thank you, but today I'm down and out...and I thought I'd use my blog for it's intended purpose for the first time in a while.

Today is my ex's birthday. Why does that depress me you ask? Well, it's complicated.

First, I still love him, I'm not by any means IN love with him anymore, but I do still deeply care for the prick.

Second, I would love to send him a message letting him know I remembered and to give him birthday wishes. I know if I do this 1. he will not appreciate them in the slightest and just look at it as me pining for him and 2. he could care less if I remembered or not 3. he'll use it as an excuse to tell people I still want him.

Third, I have fond memories of the time we were together and spent his birthday together. Mind you, it was YEARS ago now, but it was fond none the less and I miss those care free times.

Fourth, basically, I'm a loser. Yep I said it, I am. It sucks how abusive relationships still years later have an effect on how you feel. Sadly, this one does.

That being said, and it being the anniversary of Elvis' death, I'm in a funk. Hopefully by the weekend, and Alex's birthday....things will be looking up for me.

HOLY GEEZ!!

Ok, people! You GOT to talk to me here! What the F! When did it get this far out of control!?

I just caught myself in profile in the mirror in the bathroom at work, ummm....SCARY! I didn't realize how fat I really looked! I do like like the chunky fat Italian girl, and don't tell me otherwise, I SAW IT WITH MY OWN EYES.

I threw out my back recently, but today, BACK in the gym, and I'm not stopping until at LEAST 20 lbs have dropped from my fast arse! I also started my weight watchers back up today to track what I'm eating, and guess what, I'm such a porker at 130 I only have 5 points left AND I didn't eat lunch. I gotta quit that munching....