Happy Turkey Day!

I've often wondered why people call it that. Yes, I'm aware we have turkey on Thanksgiving, but really it's so much more than that. It's easy to lose track of all the good things to be thankful for when there's so much to worry about in life...trust me I know I'm a worrier just like my mother.

But this year I choose to reflect on the good....

My things to be thankful for:

1. My 91.9% I got on my MA certification exam!
2. My perfect score on my clinical exam!
3. My wonderful boyfriend who supported and put up with me through all of this....especially the last few months of me being a crazy person.
4. My wonderful family who supported my decsion to go back to school.
5. My soon to be new career in the medical feild.
6. My new found friends from school...Gemma, Liz, Hinna, Jessica...this means you!
7. and most important...my new found communication with my brother Rich. It's strange to know you have family out there you know NOTHING about. I'm glad I took the time to write that first email to get to know someone I've wanted to know for years. Everyone can use an extra shoulder to lean or cry on when the going gets rough...or just to make you laugh at the exact moment you need it. Hopefully we can develop that kind of relationship, he seems to need one at this point in time in his life....and I could always use one myself :)

I suppose as horribly as 2005 started, it hasn't ended so badly.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

I've got one thing to say....

First of all who ever can tell me what song that's from....I'm laughing my ass off!

OK....I've got lots to say so we'll just go by name....

Chris: Thank you SO much for dealing with me these last few months. It's been rough....REAL ROUGH. My tension level was high, my stress level was off the charts & yet you stuck by me even when I was being a real bitch. You being supportive, loving, and calm for me has been a god-send. I appricate you everyday, even if I don't show it as well as I should or could. Sometimes my brain just shuts down by the end of the day. I love you very much and I'm glad you came into my life when you did.

Liz...or Mary...or Mary Liz....whatever: You are a beautiful, intelligent, amazing women and I don't want you to ever forget that. You have a strange way of selling yourself short. You have more confidence in your little finger than most people have in their whole bodies, and for that, you'll go so far. NEVER under-estimate yourself. I see you and your daugther in a really good place, not too long from now. Keep your firey sprit and you will be everything you want to be and more. You were dealt a set of cards that weren't very kind, but you've worked with it. Your making the right decsions, don't let silly things (like the crap that goes on at Olympia) get in your way. Make it work for you! You will be more prepared than you think you are.

Hinna: OH BOY! When I first met you I didn't know if I liked you or wanted to punch you, but that soon faded. You my dear under-estimate yourself daily. You are a beautiful person, and I can see why you and Liz have been friends for years. You need to see all the things that are in you. You are full of class and elegance and you need to let that shine though more. Don't let the wrong people influence you. You have the ability to be a very successful independent women, you just need to believe it yourself. I have such faith in you, I hope you have as much faith in yourself, and if you don't now....maybe someday you'll have that awakening. Just like I told Liz, make sure nothing gets in the way of YOU. Married or not, you have to take care of you first. Your on the right track, stay on it, make it work for you....you will have more confidence and surprize yourself.

Jessica: Your are the most giggly person I have ever met! But, you made me laugh everyday....well everyday you showed up and didn't fall asleep. You are going to go far because you are so caring of others, freinds and family alike. Don't let anyone tell you different. You started school because of one friend, lost that friend, but gained SO much more, for the positive. Keep it up, stop falling asleep......or I'll have to come to lecture everyday just to wake you up :)

Beth: What you think you can just change your cell phone and not call a girl! Ok, so you emailed me, but I'm your best friend....you will have to call me sometime! We both have crazy schedules, we have to start making some time for each other. I love you girl and I miss you terribly. Sometime before your wedding I'd like to meet your boyfriend :) Lifes too short not to want to have dinner with good friends now and then.

Gemina: You my dear have helped me SO much with school, the intership, and just being there to have someone to talk to. You rock! I couldn't have done have of what I can do without you. THANK YOU! You'll be great at your new job....I know, you taught me :)

TFK: You are doing so well with school, even if you are plagerizing....I'm proud your back on track. Your a good friend and I miss hanging with you. Now that the insanity is done, you are expected to come around more often. It's free to hang at my house :)

Dayne: I don't get you sometimes....yes, I promised I wouldn't write about you, but I lied. I have been trying to be your friend, make you feel comfortable about talking with me, and make you and Carla understand I'm not mad anymore. My family misses you, they considered you one of their own...and still do. But yet, you were the one person I expected to wish me good luck with all of this, and the one person who didn't. No bitterness, just disappointment. I hope you know you will always have a space in my life if you want it. Granted, I don't want it like it was, I'm very happy with Chris.....but I would like it if you could look me in the face again when you do attempt to say hello, or even try and talk to me....I won't hurt you, not anymore :)

Heather: You have become one of my best friends over the last year or so, and I'm so happy that I have someone like you in my life. You inpired me to go back to school. I hope you know how great it is your doing something so positive with your life. When does the slumber party begin where we get to annoy the hell out of Chris :)

Wow, there's a lot more to say, but it's after midnight, and I'm whipped out.....so off to bed I go.
Oh and no making fun of the spelling errors, I can't spell check with this weak connection I'm stealing :)

I can do it!

Only 3 days left after today. THREE people!

That includes Mod P. I start my internship on Thursday the 17th and my last day of work at NA is Tuesday. I'm starting to get really nervous about this, but I think I can do it.....

But on a good note...Gemmina got a job! YEAH GEMMINA! And it's right over by my day job (too bad I'll be gone for the next 5 weeks!) It pays really well too, so she's well on her way to being a big girl now :)

Chris and I joined Lifetime Fitness, I have yet to be able to go, due to the ridiculous (or riccockulous) scheudle I have, but it's WAY too expensive not to go, so I'll be going as of Thursday. LOTS of life changes to come into....

....must take a deep breath and pull them all in.

Last weekend

Strange things happen to me when I go out. I should know better....

So last weekend was Halloween, wasn't planning on going out, but got bored and decided to go to a party I was invited to.

apparently it was 'boobs on parade' night, and I did NOT get the memo, but I made due. After a while I felt the itch to dance a bit with others, so I did. Next thing I know I'm the only one dancing with others watching...not strange or new, happens sometimes...

Well I was kinda diggin the music, a little industrial remixs of 80's songs by groups like KMFDM and Lords of Acid, so I started discussing the music with the guy that brought it.

20 minutes later the 'strangeness' begins.

Out of NOWHERE he says ... we should be fu*@ing by now....

my response....ummm...WHAT?

I blow it off and continue to talk. By the THIRD...YES THIRD time he says it. I say, did you not hear me the first two times, I'm pretty sure my boyfriend wouldn't like that too much AND I'm positive I'm not interested.

He says to me (READY...) My wife doesn't care, she's sitting 20 feet from you.

Now my head is screaming run now! But there's no where to go, his wife then comes over and says, hon, are you staying or leaving.

....LEAVING....

He got up to talk to her and go to the washroom, and I BOOKED.

Sorry, thanks for inviting me to your party, but I didn't need the invite into the drama.