Well I would have a lot to write if I had more TIME! I'm going to try and update at work today to post for tomorrow.

In the mean time I can tell you I gushed blood out of my arm and all over my clothes today at school. :)

I KNOW you wanted to know that!

After today 9 days left!!

It's been a LONG week, and it just keeps getting worse.

So my day for today constists of .... school 5am, work 8:30 to 5:30, bartend 6:00 to midnight. Saturday 10am MA certification test, bartend, HOMEWORK, laundry, housecleaning for the rest of the weekend.

I'm a party girl!

I almost can't wait till this school thing is over just so I can go back to my naughty girl ways...at least somewhat anyway.

ONLY 2 MORE weeks!!!

THAT'S 10 DAYS PEOPLE!!!

And sadness enters....

For those of you who haven't heard.....

My grandfather, Ronnie Smith, passed yesterday at 8:10am.

For those of you who met him, you know he was one of the quirkiest, stubbornness, thrifiest, and FINEST men you will ever meet.

He had a lot of love in his heart, enough for even those who didn't express it back. Through the years of toughing out 8 years of cancer, he keep hope in his heart, love on his mind, and goodness in his soul. He would've done anything for anyone, even if he didn't have it to give he would give you the last dollar he had if it would've helped you. He lived through 8, nearly 9, decades and saw more in his lifetime than most of us can think of seeing in two.

The doctors named him the Energizer Bunny due to his living through 3 types of cancer, and still kickin'. But in the end, his heart just couldn't hold so much love anymore and finally let his soul go in peace.

My grandfather is now reunited with the only women he ever loved. I wish I had the chance to say goodbye to him, but I'm sure he knows we were all there in spirit.

I'll miss you Grandpa.

I love you.

My Karma has been ....

set straight.....

I promised I wouldn't take about 'him' but I figurged, it's not his choice....
I'm posting an email between me and the Brit's new love....

Toni, is Carla's best friend
Dayne is my ex
And Carla is the newbie

I flipped it for you so you can read straight down

-----Original Message-----
From: Dawn
Sent: Friday, October 07, 2005 3:49 PM
To: Toni
Subject:

I just stopped by to see you, but you weren't there....

Ok, this might seem really strange coming from me and all, but I think everyone deserves to hear a nice compliment when warranted. I saw Carla this morning and this afternoon, and I'm not sure if did something different than usual, but I couldn't help but to notice she looks particularly beautiful today. She really is a striking women. If you talk to her, let her know, I'm not the only one who noticed (and it didn't have to come from me if that would be weird.)

-----Original Message-----
From: Toni
Sent: Friday, October 07, 2005 4:02 PM
To: Carla
Subject: FW:

Hey - check out the nice compliment you got below. I thought that was really nice of her.
Toni

-----Original Message-----
From: Carla
Sent: Friday, October 07, 2005 4:16 PM
To: Dawn
Subject: FW:

I guess I have to say I am very humbled as I don't look or think of myself that way.

Thank you.

Unexpected surprises are always nice, thank you again.

-----Original Message-----
From: Dawn
Sent: Friday, October 07, 2005 4:21 PM
To: Carla
Subject: RE:

Although we've had animosity between the two of us, I hold nothing against you or Dayne. I admit I WAS bitter, but that has long since pasted.

I have always thought of you as a very striking women, one of the reasons I was quite jealous in the first place, just ask Dayne. You should hold yourself in higher regard because you do deserve it. And your very welcome.

-----Original Message-----
From: Carla
Sent: Monday, October 10, 2005 9:49 AM
To: Dawn
Subject: FW:

I can completely understand how you felt and how it may have looked. However, at no time were Dayne and I together while you two were together. Nevertheless, I am very aware that any break-up is difficult, much less when working together. There really never was animosity on my part, I just understood how you must have felt and didn't want to incur any further animosity (as you put it).
I Thank you again for your kind words.

-----Original Message-----
To: Carla
Sent : Monday, October 10,2005 10:15am

Dayne and I were involved even after our break up and a lot of things lead me to believe, in my own head, we were getting back together, but honestly I don't want to get into all that. What's done is done. Dayne is truly a good person with a big heart and I just wasn't meant to fill that place he had open in it. Since then, I have found myself in a really good place and happier than I've ever been, and he seems to be very happy with you as well. I'm glad you two have found each other....just wish it would have been not in the work place like you said. That was the hard part.