I don't know if I mentioned this lately, which I should have, but haven't due to pure laziness, but I love my boyfriend.

NO, I don't think you understand. I love him like more than I have ever loved anyone in my whole life. (well next to mom and pops, but that's a different kind of love). I love the way he smells when he holds me, I love the way he can make me feel safe and content by wrapping his arms around me. I love the feeling I get when I know I'm going to be able to see and spend quality time with him. I love how silly he can be to remind me life doesn't have to be so serious. I even love his quite cute English accent. Very recently I fucked up and almost lost this amazing love of my life simply because I was stupid enough not to show him how much he meant to me.

I never realized before how much you need to tell someone they're the reason you smile, get up in the morning to face the day, or simply just keep your car from driving off a cliff since at this point since life has been on the shitty side. Now, I realize that everyday is something to work for and towards in a relationship.

Beth would be proud of this one....I actually finally realized, through a swift kick of reality, that I have to concentrate on TODAY instead of so much on the future. You would think a child of an alcoholic, and a recovering drug addict herself would have figured this out LONG ago, but NO....I have to plan out every aspect of exactly what I'm going to do and when. I forgot that if I don't concentrate more on today .... there will be no tomorrow.

Well, that's my did bit for the day. Mostly because I wanted to tell my honey I loved him because he deserves it.....I love you....:)