Just a little somethin' somethin'

I think I listened to this song about 9 times today....I seem to be relating to it a lot lately. That and as always 'Someone' by Ascension .... I'll always love that song.....it's so me.

Believe it or not I'm not really feeling 'lonely' just aggravated with the opposite (as well as my own) sex. I just want some peace and contentment in my life right now. Well that and for me to feel better since I've been sick for so long. I'm destend for it! Aren't I? I've had more bad luck than any one person should.

Fresno

Toca's Miracle

If you're gonna save the day
And you're hearin' what I say
I feel your touch your kiss, it's not enough
And if you believe in me
Don't think my love's not for real
I won't take nothin' less then a deeper love

[Chorus:]

Let me tell you
You, no I, I need a miracle
I need a miracle
Its more physical than
What I need to feel from you

Tell me that you understand
And you'll take me as I am
You'll always be the one to give me everything
Just when I thought no one cared
You're the answer to my prayer
You lift my spirits high
Come on and rescue me

You want it....

you got it people!

So first of all I'd like to say I LOVE my Fat Kid.....what other person would sign on and leave a message as Jessie Spano on my comments.

Like I said there's so much to tell.

The month of August was jammed PACKED full of stuff for me. So I don't bore you I'll give you the two major highlights of my summer!

First and most important, I got to see my brother for the first time in 16 years. Rich and I started communication thanks to the world wide web a few months back. When I found out that he was coming in for a visit I was SO excited and nervous all at the same time. If you have never experienced what it's like to have a blood relative out there in the world that you barely know anything about and finally after years you get to have some time to have a heart to heart....you'll feel your heart warm like you wouldn't believe. It's SO special.

And to top it off we took some girls I know out to Boy's Town for the first time. Good times....good times. But what happens in Boy's Town STAYS in Boy's Town :)

Then I got to go visit one of my favorite girls in the whole world...my Lizard. This girl is like my little sister I love her so much. (I love you too Beth don't worry)....She moved to New Orleans a few years ago so this was the frist chance I got to see her in a while. I spent 4 1/2 days with her and I could've just moved there I had SO much fun. I made the discovery that they make everything with 'Everclear' and not just a shot...quite a few shots... I was wondering why one daquiri made me buzzed :) I didn't want to go, but I had to come back to work. I know for sure it won't be so long between visits now though...

September has for the most part calmed down. My friend Alan came in this past week and I took a few days off to spend with him. I'm SO tired from going out now....I'm almost glad he went home when he did or I might have collased with exshaustion!

I'm still sick for those of you who are wondering. Insomnia is still in full effect...and this cough/cold/whatever the hell it is just won't go away! The doctor has me on antibotics now again, but I'm starting to get really depressed because of it. I can't run, the antibiocs have steroids in them so just when I was losing weight...I have to take a drug that makes me gain. YEAH!

So that's it for now. I'm going through some other stuff right now that's causing me some frustration, pain, migranes and tears....but it's not something I'm willing to share with the web just yet so I'm keeping it to myself for now.

Check ya later...

I also went to New Orleans