This one's for Beth!!!

Most of the things in this test were done with YOU!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!

You Are a Very Bad Girl

You are 10% Good and 90% BadAs they say, good girls go to heaven and bad girls go everywhere!You make most bad girls look like angels - and have a hell of a time along the way.

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

Which sex in my city?

I'm cool with this, except I don't have a closet full of clothes.....I'd better get working on that!!

You Are Most Like Carrie!

You're quirky, flirty, and every guy's perfect first date.But can the guy in question live up to your romantic ideal?It's tough for you to find the right match - you're more than a little picky.Never fear... You've got a great group of friends and a great closet of clothes, no matter what! Romantic prediction: You'll fall for someone this year... Totally different from any guy you've dated.

Which Sex and the City Vixen Are You?

Exactly when....

do we grow up? When is that moment we have to start conducting ourselves as adults and stop taking as many chances as we did when we were kids?

You know what I'm talking about. When we were younger we went at situations without thought or fear. Now that we're older there's an entire thought process behind everything we do from the time we get up in the morning till the time we go to bed at night. Sometimes even in our dreams we over think things.

When did this happen? Why is it at 28 I'm looking for those no thought moments in life? The fly by the seat of my pants moments were nothing matters at that very moment other than exactly what's happening? The enjoyment of the moment that were in.

Instead we take those moments and over analyze them to the fullest extent. There's the guilt, the pain, the consequences of our actions, the thoughts on who we might hurt, or who might hurt us. This is exactly the reason I can't open myself up to people. I prefer to have many fleeting moments of excitement, than the mundane of the over thought process.

I think like a man. I don't see anything wrong with casual sex, or the occasional hook up with someone who isn't exactly Mr. Right....or even Mr. Maybe, just someone who makes you laugh and you feel a hard attraction to that person. I'm a jeans and t-shirt kinda gal who can get dressed up and go out when she needs to. I'm nearly 30, I don't want kids....hell I'm pretty sure I don't even want to get married in this day in age. I just want to be able to have those moments where I feel like a kid again.

Is that so wrong?

Thanks.....

I just wanted to say thank you to all of my friends and family who have supported me through this lastest break up of mine.

....although it was for the best, it still hard to get through and as usual, I'm just throwing myself into the job, so if you haven't heard from me...Gemina...it's becasue I'm terribly busy right now.

As the saying goes, breaking up is hard to do.

And another one bites the dust....

For anybody out there that cares, after nearly a year, Chris and I broke up last night.

My Dad used to joke that my song was 'Another One Bites the Dust' by Queen. Today I heard that song 4 times. I'm pretty sure that joke is coming true.

I loved him, I did. It was hard, but mutual. We're both at different times in our lives right now and while he needs to 'grow up' a in a sense, I need to grow up in another. I have a lot of things going on. A lot of change on my plate, besides the newly single life again.....and the quitting of my second job. I have a lot of emotional things to deal with.

I'm getting better. It's a slow and steady process that I'm trying to remember is not going to be an overnight fix. That's hard when you have an anxiety problem. Slow and steady wins the race though.

For now I'm going to concentrate on my summer. Summer of weekends off and relaxation! I might even have some fun :)

Yes, AGAIN

So last weekend I moved.....AGAIN.

That would make 6 times in 3 years. Don't be jealous! I swear this is my last time for at least 2 to 3 years. It's TOO much for me, and my anxiety problem.

This time was just that much more fun....

First, since the guy who bought the house I was living in was an ass...we officially had 15 days to find a place to live and clear out the old house. Not an easy task considering there was 25 years of accumulated stuff in there. Now I just about done packing the week before we moved. My roommate not exactly as anal as I am...so I was 'freaking' so to speak.

Second, we didn't actually get a place to live until about 6 days before we had to move.

Third, on the Saturday before the move I came down with what I now think was a mild case of food poisoning. I spent most of the day moving things to the new place, and throwing up.

Fourth, the HOTTEST day of the year...with humidity over a 100 degrees, we had to move all of this STUFF to the new place on the second floor. Did I mention I had food poisoning? NOT fun.

Fifth, we're on the second floor. Our couch was NOT getting up the stairs. No if's and's or but's about it. So since I had enough boys here....we ended up having to launch it over the balcony with the aid of a tow rope. Did I mention my anxiety problem at this point.

Sixth, I decided to go to a party with Chris since I was so wound up I needed a break. The next morning we went to go drop of his daughter so we could get back here and I could get going on the house. To bad his ex wasn't on my same schedule since she was more than an hour late! I didn't get back here till late afternoon, so not much got done.

I was 'interesting' to say the very least. I spent most of the week with Heather unpacking and getting our stuff in order. Now we finally have a house to speak of. I even went to the grocery store to day so we could have REAL food in the house instead of take out.

Good news is....I quit my 2nd job. FINALLY! After 4 years at the restaurant it's time for a little 'me' time. I haven't had a summer to myself in nearly 12 years. I think I deserve it. Actually I KNOW I deserve it. I'm excited to see what the summer brings.

I also got to go out with an old friend this week. Rob and I went to high school together. We met up again at the reunion. We had dinner and talked till nearly 2:30 in the morning. I'm pretty sure after catching him up on my life the last few years, he thinks I'm crazy.....

....but all of my friends figure that out eventually. That's why they love me.

So, now I have a new house, and a new life beginning. I'll be sure to keep you posted on all the exciting events. I can blog more now that were settled in the new place, so watch for me. :)

Memories....

In the last two and a half weeks I have found some of the worlds greatest treasures.

Old friends.

There are many people whom you look back on life and have a memory or two you’ve shared and were able to smile about. Some memories will make you even laugh out loud, but there are very few people you can look back on life an have a memory you can feel in your heart. The kind of memories that bring a tear to your eye and a smile to your face the same time.

I have very selective memories from my childhood and teenage years. To be perfectly honest…not many of them are all that great. For whatever reason my mind tends to remember the bad before the good. Then again in this day in age either you grew up in a dysfunctional home or an overly spoiled one.


I have never been ungrateful for what I have. There are people that are quite a bit less fortunate than I am. I had 2 parents, who were still married, a rarity in this day. A roof over my head, and clothes on my back. All though not the most fashionable of clothes, they were clothes and I was grateful. Hell, I was even feed three meals a day; that’s nothing to knock, in my hometown; that can be very rare.

But, in the last two weeks I have just had a FLOOD of good memories come back to me.

I went to my reunion. 10 years it’s been since I’ve seen most of these people. Some of them I could have gone 10 more, others I wish I wouldn’t have lost touch with as much as I did.

Jeff, what a great soul. I don’t have a single bad memory for this guy. He’s a fantastically talented musician, has the ability to challenge you opinion without demeaning it. Funnier than you would ever expect. I could sit with this kid for hours….and I have. He has such a great mind and is going to do great things with his life.

Chris, probably one of the funniest people I’ve ever known. This kid I’ve actually known since GRADE SCHOOL too. I hung out at his Dad’s restaurant when I was a kid, eating fries and drinking Glen Rock soda. I’ve even seen this kid snort sugar. He’s moved away to California to start a career. Moving away that far away from Zompton is a huge feat so my hats are off to him. Chris’ future will be bright due to his positive outlook on everything I wish him the best and hopefully we’ll see each other again before the 20th reunion.

Nikki, the kindest hearted woman I’ve ever known. Granted I’ve seen and spoke with NikMo a few times since graduation, but that night we really got to be together again. Just like old times we sat back and laughed on old memories, cried and some harsh realities, and caught up for the first time in 10 years. I got to see her Mom for the first time in forever, and just her house brought back memories I thought were gone a long time ago. She was always a wonderful friend and her family was like my own. I hate the fact I missed so many big moments in her life. Her graduation from college, her engagement, and even her marriage. But, we can’t take back the past, and I am confident we will have more memories to come, and personally I can’t wait to see what our future holds.

After few days after my reunion I was cursing MySpace when I got a message from and old friend Alex. I haven’t seen him for nearly 4 years and here he was sending me an email wanting to meet up. The next day, I went to the bar he works at and sat with James, an equally old friend. It was so surreal to realize I spent quite a few years hanging out with these guys creating the craziest of memories….like falling asleep with your arm around a pizza.

We were young and drunk most of the time, but even though we stuck by each other through good and bad. Alex even drove me into Wisconsin and WALKED home from my house when I was intoxicated one night. I missed them, especially Alex. We worked together at one time and had good time doing it too. Besides he can make me feel like the most beautiful person in the world when I look my worst. That’s a good friend. I’m hoping we continue our friendship for a long, long time. No more 10 years between visits.

Oddly enough that Saturday I went out with a few friends from work….and whom should work at the bar I went too? Jimmy, another old friend. He took care of me in many hours of need and always gave me a place to lay my head when I was too tired (or drunk) to drive home. He’s even made me dinner before work. I love this man, he’s the reason I met people like Alex and James. I’m truly grateful to all of his warmth and friendship through all these years.

The best was yet to come of course. Monday Alan came home for a visit. Alan and I met when I proceeded to insult him in front of his buddies….a couple nights later he bought me so many shots from across the bar I was toast. We’ve been friends ever since. I was Alan’s official ‘function girl’ for many years. One summer my Mom even swore I’d been to every wedding in Lake and Cook County. Alan could make me laugh on queue and yet would sit and listen to my every word when I had a problem. He’d hug me when I was down, he’d party with me when I was up. We took each other through a rough time in our lives….all while freezing without a sweatshirt. (Inside Joke) Now that I’ve found this kid again, I’m hoping even if he is Texas, we can be continue to be close.

I hope all of these people know, as well as my good friends I do see on a regular basis, that I will ALWAYS be here if they need me. I may not party every night, I may not always be seen….but I’ll be there at 3am when you need a listening ear, or a sober ride home.

You all have grown in so many ways, as well as I. I’m excited to see what all our futures will bring. Through good and bad, thick and thin….these are, and hopefully will be, the people I’d like to spend it with. I love you all.

Sheryl CrowAlways on Your Side

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But your demons and your angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought you'd be
Leavin' me with no place left to go from here
Leavin' me so many questions all these years

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are we left to wonder, all alone, eternally
But is this how it's really meant to be
No is it how it's really meant to be

Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side