I'm addicted to Brian Walsh's middle drawer. (HONEY CLAM DOWN!!! I SAID DRAWER NOT DRAWERS!!!) You see this guy in purchasing has the drawer of goodies. Like lemon drops and Dove chocolate but the best of all Twizzlers....I'm addicted to these stupidly good strawberry treats! I try to pretend I don't know anything about this drawer, but it's useless, it pull me toward it and next thing you know I'm cramming this twisted sugary treats in my mouth.

At least they're a fat free snack......

So work has been 'interesting' to say the least. I'm been working my butt off, but I have a couple of gals who think they're still in high school trying this, let's get her in trouble routine. Funny thing is my boss knows better so I'm not real worried. I personally liked the whole instance where they said I didn't know how to work customer service....huh that's interesting, I've been working in the restaurant industry for nearly 11 years and now suddenly I don't know how to take care of customers. INTERESTING....you would think in that amount of time someone would have told me that.
Oh well as Dayne says....Fuck em. I'm out to by myself a new CD player for work so I don't even have to here thier voices if I don't want to ... YAY....

OHOHOHOHOH!!! YAY!!! It worked. If you want to leave me comments, click on that little place where it says # comments in light blue! YAY! I'm a blog genius!

So? You like? I switched it up a bit....like decorating a new house. I made a few changes, spurced up my blog to make it more "me". I dig it. I'm trying to get the "comments" section to work so you can leave comments if you like (all 3 of you who ready my blog) but that's slow going. I'm learnin' as I go :). Look for more changes to come!

....pour some sugar on me!

I'm sick. Really sick. Not fever sick, but can't walk ten feet without feeling like I'm going to pass out and gasping for air sick. Which mind you makes waitressing really 'easy'. I decided to break down and go to the doctor today. Although I don't want to, I need to. Since the Mac Grill, Chili's, Applebee's and On the Border have all closed down we've been up 75% to 80% at Bennigans. It's going to be BUSY this weekend when the town finds out Mac Grill and Chili's are now closed too....BOO...I mean YAY for the money, but boo for the running around when I already can't breathe. Hence the going to the doc to break some of this congestion up so I can breathe easier this weekend. Ok, Kivi, I updated for you....even though you found other friends to hang with last night.

I hate myself today. I haven't said that since high school, but I really do hate myself today. I think it's going to be one of those days I'm not going to be able to stop crying if I try no matter what anybody says. It seems to be pick on Dawn day.....so far I've gotten the I don't dress to standards at work (and if I want to flaunt it I better look for another place to work) and the 'we're all aware your struggling with your weight' speech. ALL IN ONE LECTURE!!! Yah! I'm a fat ass who can't dress!

I want to go home now....bad....I can't stop crying...so I'll just stare at my screen pretend to work the best I can, and blubber like an idiot. I'm just so mad I'm taking this so personally ... I think it's the weight and the pointing out that my boobs are a little excessive at the same time...well damn what the hell am I supposed to to with them! They're there, I can't just tuck them away. I really do wish I could sometimes I really miss the 32AA I once was. If these were a boob job, I'd have them removed.

Enough, I'm off to blubber and feel sorry for myself for a moment. I love you hon, thanks for trying to make me feel better. Your the best.

Ho Hum life is so boring sometimes. Especially when your stuck in the routine that I'm in, work/pack/sleep.....(and the occasional couple of hours with the man in my life). As most of you know I've never been much of a good sleeper....damn that whole chemical imbalance!....but lately it's been even WORSE! Last night was the first time I fell asleep before midnight in FOREVER...but of course our very own timberkivi decided to wake me up with the 11 o'clock because he heard 'Pour some sugar on me'. BOO Kivi BOO!!!!

Ok, so needless to say I'm a little bummed about my move, packing up all my stuff just makes me depressed. I'm going to be furthest away from everything I love (except you honey) and it just depresses the hell out of me. As long as everything goes smoothly I'll be ok, I'll be a wreck until it does, but I'll be ok once it all settles.

So Kivi, your still in pursuit I see. Well, my advice, just let the cards fall where they may. If you push, people tend to push back. As for your non social life, well, stop letting the fam plan your life and maybe you could make plans with the rest of the real world :) I'm sorry if Monday,Wednesday, and Fridays having dinner with me at Benigga's isn't good enough for you. There's always Saturday, you could come hang with me all day!!(tee...hee)

I gotta work....hasta