A.M. Run

TFK is going to go to the gym early today since he has something to do tonight, so since I couldn't sleep anyway....I went to the gym at 5:30 for a quick workout before work since I want to go grocery shopping later. The cupboards are bare....

Today June 28, 2007
Days at the gym: 6
Calories burned at the gym: 2822
Miles jogged: 23.2
Weight today: Next weigh in 7/6/07
Weight to lose before the wedding: 30 lbs
Weight I WANT to lose: 50 lbs

Keeping it going....

Today June 28, 2007
Days at the gym: 5
Calories burned at the gym: 2472
Miles jogged: 19.7
Weight today: Next weigh in 7/6/07
Weight to lose before the wedding: 30 lbs
Weight I WANT to lose: 50 lbs

It's starting to really hurt too....

Tuesday June 26th

So I was a little lazy this weekend. I went to a baseball game watched the Cubs beat the pants of the Sox, can you say SWEEP. And since I walked around the city a bit...I skipped the gym. Mainly because I was a bit hung over on Monday and I was expecting someone to stop by, and they didn't. DAMN IT. So I pushed it an extra half hour today, and tomorrow I will too.

Today June 27, 2007
Days at the gym: 4
Calories burned at the gym: 1957
Miles jogged: 16.0 even whoo ha!
Weight today: Next weigh in 7/6/07
Weight to lose before the wedding: 30 lbs
Weight I WANT to lose: 50 lbs

Working it OUT...or off really

I’ve been thinking a lot lately…I know, it’s dangerous, but seriously, I have done nothing about my increasing waistline. I keep saying I’m going to, but it never happens. I mean I really go all out for about 2 weeks, and then nachos come my way and I’m just all downhill from there. Who can REALLY say no to nachos?!

So … I decided since I haven’t used this blog in a while I’d start using it to help keep myself accountable. Putting it in my face is the only way to really make me think about it isn’t it?
I admit I have a lot of problems with diet and exercise. First of all, I don’t think I’m THAT much of a fatty, until I catch myself in the mirror right before jumping in the shower, then I scare myself.

Second, I LOVE food. No really, it’s my boyfriend & my best friend. It cheers me up when I’m depressed, keeps me company when I’m lonely … hell it just plain gives me something to do when I have nothing better to do. I have a theory that the foods that are the messiest are the best tasting. Nachos, chilidogs, a fat juicy burger. YUM! If they’re a possibility of staining your clothes, it’s going to be damn good! And then there’s the deep fried theory, you can’t go wrong when you deep-fry something. I even had deep fried pickles when I went to Louisiana this last time, and they were to DIE for. Nothing like completely bastardizing the cucumber.

Third, well, I’m lazy. I hear people I know actually laughing. Yes, I’m a work-a-holic that can spend 16 to 20 hours a day at work. Yes, I’m a neat freak who spends her Saturdays on ‘clean mode’ and proceeds to scare people with how badly I want things clean. BUT when it comes to my own health, I’m the laziest bitch you know. It’s sad really. When I could be out running or walking even on a beautiful day. I choose to lay with the TV on and do nothing. I think it’s because I don’t have an opportunity to do nothing a lot so therefore I find it necessary to ‘treat’ myself on the rare occasion that it comes up. Which of course means sitting on the couch all day stuffing my face. Smart huh?

Oh, and then there’s beer. I how could you not like the tasty goodness? Even though it backs on the extra calories and pounds…I still heart beer. And of course my favorites are the most fatting of all Weiss beers. Mmmm….Blue Moon…..but really….I’m pretty sick of grossing myself out. I lie in bed at night actually depressed about my weight and then during the day, I make all the wrong choices. I have to admit, I’m terrified about seeing people from my past at a wedding in September. I’m sick of being lethargic and pitiful. I want my hot skinny bod back. And damn it…I’m going to get it!

First, in March I joined Weight Watchers online to try and make me accountable for what goes in my mouth everyday. I’ll tell you one hard part…living with someone else. I may not buy the ice cream knowing I’ll eat it when I go to the store, but she might. And I’m an ice cream junkie! It’s easier to say yes when she asks me if I want something from Taco Bell than to get up and cook and who’s going to turn down a Frosty from Wendy’s on a hot day? Well, since March I haven’t really followed the WW plan. And sadly is haven’t really gained or lost more than a few pounds…and I think that was water weight. Honestly right now my goal is to break into the 170’s! And that’s been my goal for months. Sad, really sad.

Well, I made a deal with myself, I’m not going to waste my hard earned money on something I’m not going to use, instead of quitting the program, I’m getting more serious about it. Keeping a food journal and tracking EVERY point I can. This week alone I’m almost over my allotted points, I tell you I’m a pig…but I’m aware of it and am making plans for my next grocery shopping trip to prevent these problems.

Second, last Saturday night TFK(the fat kid) and the boys came over the hiznouse (yeah I said it) and drank wine for TFK’s birthday. Inevitable when TFK gets wasted, he starts talking about his weight. He was actually talking to the boys about joining a gym with him, but when I heard how cheap it was, I got to thinking….I could handle that price. Not to mention if I’m paying for it, no matter how little, I’m going. So Tuesday, I joined a gym. Now I can’t make the excuses about running outside…it’s raining, it’s too cold, it’s too hot…blah blah blah. So since TFK wants be TSSK (the somewhat skinnier kid) and he’s willing to admit he needs to be helped by having someone go with him I’m now his gym partner…mainly cause he’s scared I’ll kill him if he doesn’t show J but it’s also helping me, I need to be held accountable as well. I won’t stand someone up for anything, I’ll make excuses to myself why not to go, but that won’t fly for him…or for me anymore for that matter.

In the last 3 days, I’ve ‘jogged’ a total of 10.3 miles burned 1247calories at the gym and I actually feel pretty great. It’s only day 3 though people. I figured I’d look at it like Celebrity Fit Club. They have 100 days to bring down their weight and some of them loose as much as 50 lbs. I WANT to loose a total of 50 lbs. But with the wedding coming in 3 short months from today, I’m going to shoot for 30 lbs by then. 90 days, 30 lbs….I think it’s plausible. Really, if you look at it mathematically, it’s about .3 lbs a day. That’s feasible I think. As long as I watch my intake and really take my workouts seriously, I think I’ve got it made.

So .. by September 22, 2007, the day of my cousin Casey’s wedding I SHOULD be 30 lbs (if not more) lighter J Wish me luck! I’ll keep you posted at least once a week on my progress…if you’re reading or care anyway ….

Today June 22, 2007
Days at the gym: 3 (in a row!)
Calories burned at the gym: 1247
Miles jogged: 10.3
Weight today: 181.2 … mind you I’ll only be on the scale every 2 weeks or I’ll FREAK out
Weight to lose before the wedding: 30 lbs
Weight I WANT to lose: 50 lbs

And I would like to point out that today at lunch instead of getting a Dr. Pepper (which I do have an obsession for) I got the light lemonade….not as tasty as Dr Pepper, I mean really what can be, but WAY less calories!

Reasons why I'll miss Alex...

...when he leaves for Texas in July.

1. Those world famous hugs.
2. His huge heart.
3. The love he has for people in general.
4. The dedication he has to his friends.
5. His ability to just be there when you need him.
6. Sober rides to Wisconsin.
7. Being able to randomly call him from New Orleans drunk and needing a shot recipe.
8. His passion for life.
9. His love of fun.
10. Those hugs....
11. Knowing I could call him even at 3am, for anything.
12. Depending on him for a shoulder to cry on.
13. Being able to be in sweats and no make up and him still calling me beautiful.
14. Watching me date all the wrong men...and being able to laugh with me about it later.
15. His laugh which could put a smile on any one's face.
16. Watching him get wasted on Jack.
17. Watching him get wasted on Jack and hitting on me.
18. He appreciates a nice rack.
19. He loves deeper than anyone I know.
20. Who am I going to get to give me those hugs? There better be a training seminar for someone.
21. His amazing listening ability.
22. His ability to listen .. even when he doesn't want to.
23. He's an amazing cuddler.
24. His sense of humor.
25. His sense of loyalty.
26. His smile can light up a room.
27. The party doesn't start until he arrives :)
28. Yearly football games .. who else will make sure I have a jacket and then I end up make hot chocolate and run all over the countryside missing the game for.
29. Brings me as the bitch to the bring your own bitch parties :)
30. I'm serious, I'll have to start a 12 step program for people who will miss those hugs.
31. The fact I don't have to talk to him everyday for him to know his in my thoughts and heart.
32. The fact I don't have to talk to him everyday to know I'm in his
33. His support when I need it.
34. His ability to tell me I'm full of it.
35. One less Cubs fan in Chicago.
36. His advice when I need it and ask for it.
37. His advice when I didn't ask.
38. Who the hell am I going to flirt with and stare at when I go to the Grill?!
39. His candy flavored martini making ability.
40. Did I mention his hugs yet?
41. The way he takes care of everyone else before himself.
42. His warm soft kisses hello.
43. Who else is going to get drunk and take their clothes off?!
44. Sober rides to Chicago.
45. Who's going to play Silk's 'Freak Me' at 3am?! :)
46. Unconditional Love.
47. He way his eyes light up when he talks about is kids.
48. Stupid inside jokes that make no sense but to you, me, Alan and James....
49. Who will I marry now?!
50. I'm going to really miss those hugs...I guess I'm just going to have to go to Texas to visit.

There are so many more...and so much love...but it's a start to help him understand how much not only I as his friend, but so many others are going to miss him. Just a little reminder that we love you and understand and know why you have to go, but we want you to come home too. Don't get too comfortable.